Don't worry, I am not about to give you financial advice. First off, I was only marginally successful in that math class with all the % rates. I'm just glad I know what APR means, but if I had to calculate it, I'd be in trouble. Second, the only time I invested in the stock market, I realized about a month in that I wouldn't make rent without that money, so let's just say my portfolio is...limited.
I do however know a little about time and spiritual investing, mainly because I have also been unwise in those areas of investment. I also know a little (very little) about heart surgery because, well, I'm a nerd, and that stuff interests me.
Christian radio stations have been updating about the newborn son of Sanctus Real's lead singer this week as he endured a 4 hour open heart surgery and almost died yesterday. It has really effected me and convicted me of how I take this life for granted.
I invest my time and my spiritual heart in so many different things that I've lost count. Reading novels, not cleaning my house, and shopping are three of my current faves. As long as I spread myself around, I don't have to invest too much into one area, and I protect myself against any hurt that may come from one direction. Because if I give myself completely to a relationship or a project and they fail, it feels much worse than if I just got my feet wet and they fail. Yet, my efforts at diversification have not given me the returns I had hoped for. I don't feel well-rounded and fulfilled; instead, I feel depleted, broken. My heart wasn't constructed to work in pieces, and just as my blood-pumping heart must be whole to keep me alive, my spiritual heart must be wisely invested in one thing, the one true Thing, in order to maximize its yield. If only I had given all of my heart over to God in the first place, by now the rate of return would be incalculable. Now I feel like I am simultaneously scrambling to gather all the broken pieces of my heart in one location and doling them back out in other wrong places. I know I said I don't get that kind of math, but this can't be good for my eternal portfolio!
So I'm trying to reset. I'm gathering the pieces of my heart and giving them the the Lord Almighty to stitch together perfectly. And I'm certain when I do, everything else will yield accordingly.
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